Just a simple~~~

The day before yesterday, Fish, Jie, Cat and I attended a NLP (Neuro Lingustic Programming) talk in KTAR Learning Center In Wisma MCA. The talk is guided by a man who has great involvement and various practices in NLP, Mr Anthony Pinto . Generally, it's like the hypnosis talk which costs about rm120 in my first sem, just a simple intoduction about the whole idea of NLP... Abit of demonstration and we realised that some of the ideas are linked to the concept of Pavlov and hypnosis.. 6.30 - 8pm, thank god i'm not feel asleep in the middle of the talk, just the stupid aircon made me and Fish shivering beneath it... After that, we took LRT back to Wangsa Maju and fellow seniors came to condo and yar, i got some new friends on that day. ^.^

That night, me and jie slept in the living room. We talk and talk until 4.10am in the morning!! it'sa new experience for me, since i haven't tried before sleeping in the living room (because my sleeping pattern is quite a weird which will scare people off haha)... For the whole night, she told me lots of things...

~ You yourself, your own opinion is the most crucial, there is no need to care so much about other's words.. Honestly i felt kinda sad when i heard somethings from them especially in this sem break, i realized they have this kind of thinking about him... But all this is not important already, as long as i have my own thought. 

~ I admit that i'm a self-esteemed low person, maybe it's because i don't have attractive physical and some kind of internal attraction?? Because of this stupid esteem it has caused lots of problems to me for the 18 years of my life, especially when I enrolled in college. This is one of my aim this year - increase my inner self, and to increase my self esteem also!! (but not until narcissim lar). A friend said, i'm overly care and worried others gonna hate me, angry of me, or simply just boh song me. Sometimes, i will have this kind of thought too, when someone acted cold or just less interactions among us, i will blame myself whether i'm doing something wrong that they are moving away from me.... kinda low esteem right? haha

~ Recently i have some conflicts with my friends where. Friends are friends, friends are not 100% belong to you, and friends have their freedom. In this age, many of us have their own relationship where i am glad that they have succesfully obtained their love. For sure we cant hang out like last time and i know i have to get used to it. Am i jealous with it? Until the time has come, i have to let go also...

~ People grow, people become matured ; yes it's true that we have a wonderful past, but the past ' shi zhong' is a past... It can only be kept in my memory.. When we grow up, our dream and pathway become different, but the one that is similar - we are all bustling to our own dreams and ambitions.... Thus, we will come up with different relationship circle, we mixed with people who have the same background and social status with us, nor with the different one too... But i believe, the moment all of us have together will not fade, even the time had passed... ^.^