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One of the theory in psychology said that:

"human need to achieve some particular aspects, in that particular life stage, in order to achieve balance and move on to the next stage"...

i agreed of that~

Nothing seems to satisfy me anymore in this stage of life

What i want, is just that particular thing~~

Mummy's big day

Mum's Birthday

Few days back, one of my mum's ex-colleague message me in Facebook, telling me she's thinking to give my mum a surprise in her birthday. Both of us are planning, and finally the day has come.

Roughly around noon time, my sis was upstairs, i was downstairs together with mum watching her soup drama... Mei sis text me that she's gonna reach within 15 minutes, that i need to let my mum to be upstairs only, she can pass me the cake from the back door. Quickly me and my sis did stupid things, Viber each other inside the house. I told my sis no matter how also mum need to be upstairs.

* The most crazy thing is, i was sitting on the floor and my sis was sitting on the sofa behind me. To prevent mum from knowing what we are planning few days back, both of us Viber each other!

Mei sis reached. My sis shout from upstairs asking my mum to bring the soup to her, but due to my mum was so into the drama she couldn't leave the sofa. Plan failed. Sis viber me that she dont know what to do.

I said," u say la u dont feel good, pretend to be sick" and sis reply me :" hello, im sick okie" that i reli forget she is sick that time. Then suddenly house phone rang i got so relief, sis said its a call for mum. Quickly i went to the back and open the door and took the cake, trying to minimize the door sound. Took the cake to the room downstairs, and start to prepare all.

Mei sis drove her car and came in through the front gate. Mum got surprise she suddenly came without telling her. I pretend to take things (in fact i want to take the mancis in the living room). Than i came out with the cake and we sang "happy birthday" song to mum.. After the "mini gathering" only we confess everything. That the phone call which no body answer once my mum pick up, is from my sis!! Haha all of us laugh so hard! Sis, brilliant! ^^

Really appreciate what Mei sis did for us. Thank you Mei sis!! ^^

* this colleague of my mum, she's roughly like me... Our personality... She doesnt act like an adult, she's like a kiddo and they way she talks is cute and funny and friendly ^^ She said, her husband said taking care of his wife is like taking care of his children haha ^^ But due to her special personality, and her kind heart that she spend most of her time on charity work, that's the reason i click to her quite much ^^ When she's young she's really a pretty girl (now also pretty la) ^^

OFF | THAT"S IT

This is a post of silence

I dont wanna talk 

I dont wanna mingle with people

I dont wanna communicate with people

I am tired of going with other people's mood

Other people's attitude when they talk

Other people's mind

Without thinking of how their listener feel

When they just talk what they like

Insulting, criticizing, scolding

In front of you

Behind of you

The world is so complicated

People stab you behind of you

People talk bad behind of you

People don't care a single thing about other people

Except themselves

People hurt other people to gain pleasure

One, i can accept

Two, barely, i can still accept

Three, comes together, i am using one hand hanging on the rope

Four

Its when i will explode

The extend of four

I would like to shut and off ALL

the relationship i have with

ALL the people in my CURRENT circle

and continue my life elsewhere

in this earth

I am have enough.

THE END.

My dreams

Sometimes i will dream

Dream about my future

I want to go to oversea and pursue my career

I want to become a researcher, a social psychologist, a social worker

In there, i will face a lot of challenges

Culture shock, language barriers, climate changes

But its alright

Because i want to create something

Something that comes from me

I want to escape from this current environment

Where i find it sad and heart broken 

From my friends and people beside me.....

Sometimes i will dream

Silly dream haha

I am going to marry someone who is not a Chinese

A westerner, perhaps

An interracial marriage

Our offspring will be cute and 

I will love them with all my heart

That's the family that i am going to build

A family that full of 

Love, respect, responsibilities and commitment

Sometimes i will dream

I will dream that i am on my way to achieve both of my dreams

Of course

There are many many more that

I am not able to list here as

Because there is nothing left for me to achieve here

Hence, i will make the dreams

Comes true

In this reality

I want something special

Something different

Something extraordinary

To put some colours in

My dull life

I want to proof to those people that keep looking down at me

That me, 

I am,

Also

Capable of

Making the dreams comes true!

I am tired of this meaningless life

I am tired of being alone all the time

I am tired i am always the one being step down

I am tired of people underestimate me

I will

Make all my dreams happen~~

加油!

知道你不开心

在远方的我爱莫能助

你又不愿打开心结

怎么帮你呢?

希望你一切顺利

加油!!